{"id":325,"date":"2023-07-05T18:10:19","date_gmt":"2023-07-05T16:10:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/renataveverkova.cz\/?p=325"},"modified":"2023-07-31T15:02:02","modified_gmt":"2023-07-31T13:02:02","slug":"pondeli-26-6-23","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/renataveverkova.cz\/?p=325","title":{"rendered":"Pond\u011bl\u00ed 26.6.23"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Z\u00a0p\u011btky \u0161estkou<\/strong>\ud83d\ude09<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

P\u011btka se d\u00e1 kr\u00e1sn\u011b p\u0159epsat na \u0161estku, nemysl\u00edte?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I j\u00e1 to tak ud\u011blala, b\u011bhem vypisov\u00e1n\u00ed data na jednom r\u00e1doby \u00fa\u0159edn\u00edm, ne v\u0161ak p\u0159\u00edli\u0161, dokumentu, sm\u011b\u0159ovala jej k odevzd\u00e1n\u00ed osob\u011b, kter\u00e1 pro danou v\u011bc nebyla kompetentn\u00ed, a v podstat\u011b, i p\u0159esto, \u017ee se zn\u00e1me v\u00edce jak dvacet let, u\u017e nebyla p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 kompetentn\u00ed ani pro m\u011b. Takovou v\u011bc si nechcete tak \u00fapln\u011b p\u0159iznat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jako byste se dobrovoln\u011b ochuzovali o podstatnou \u010d\u00e1st sv\u00e9 minulosti, a to logicky nechcete, pokud jste empatik, neboli senzitivn\u00ed c\u00ed\u0165a, jako j\u00e1.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u016fj takzvan\u00fd citlivismus za\u010dal d\u00e1vno v d\u011btstv\u00ed, kdy\u017e jsem se musela jako mal\u00e1 vyrovn\u00e1vat se ztr\u00e1tou v\u011bc\u00ed, doslova jejich \u017eivotn\u00ed kapitolu v sob\u011b uzav\u0159\u00edt. Pohybovat se mezi snem a skute\u010dnost\u00ed a uv\u011bdomovat si, \u017ee v dan\u00e9 realit\u011b u\u017e dan\u00e1 v\u011bc neexistuje. Bylo nutno se od v\u011bc\u00ed oprostit. Lp\u011bn\u00ed. \u0160lo o stav mysli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dal\u0161\u00edm stup\u00ednkem se m\u011bly st\u00e1t z\u00e1\u017eitky a lid\u00e9 s t\u00edm spojeni, do t\u00e9 m\u00edry, abych p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 neobnovovala utrpen\u00ed za\u017eit\u00fdch rozchod\u016f, ne v\u0161ak pouze partnersk\u00fdch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pro\u010d? Co se stalo? Co jsem ud\u011blala, komu? Pro\u010d? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

St\u00e1le dokola, kdy\u017e je V\u00e1m dvacet, t\u0159icet, \u010dty\u0159icet. Neda\u0159ilo se mi netesknit nad ztracen\u00fdmi lidmi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ode\u0161li. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ode m\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dobrovoln\u011b. Bylo nutno si to p\u0159izn\u00e1vat tak dlouho a \u010dasto, a\u017e dojdu do stavu p\u0159izn\u00e1n\u00ed. Lp\u011bn\u00ed. Stav mysli a du\u0161e.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stalo se? D\u011bje se. Procesn\u00ed z\u00e1le\u017eitost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

St\u00e1le osciluji od vidu nedokonav\u00e9ho k tomu dokonav\u00e9mu. Podobn\u011b jako lid\u00e9 kolem m\u011b, my v\u0161ichni, sv\u011bt, j\u00e1 sama, c\u00edt\u00edme pot\u0159ebu b\u00fdt dokonal\u00fdmi. Nesmysl, nic takov\u00e9ho neexistuje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stav mysli, a du\u0161e, ke kter\u00e9mu bych j\u00e1 r\u00e1da dosp\u011bla je dokonavost.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

To, v \u010dem ostatn\u00ed, zd\u00e1 se, vynikaj\u00ed. Jednou a dost, sta\u010dilo, uzav\u0159eno, jde se d\u00e1l. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vra\u0165me se k \u010d\u00edslu p\u011bt, od kter\u00e9ho je nutn\u00e9 p\u0159ej\u00edt d\u00e1l, t\u0159eba i n\u00e1siln\u011b. Prost\u011b d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eM\u00e1\u0161 to p\u0159e\u0161krtan\u00fd.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNem\u00e1m.\u201c sly\u0161\u00edm sebe. Slova, kter\u00e1 si dovol\u00edm. O tom bych musela n\u011bco v\u011bd\u011bt, nic jsem ne\u0161krtla, stejn\u011b tak jako m\u00e1m probl\u00e9m \u0161krtat lidi, tak zrovna na tomto pap\u00ed\u0159e, a t\u00edm jsem si jist\u00e1, jsem nic ne\u0161krtla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eM\u00e1\u0161 to tady p\u0159episovan\u00fd.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ano, z p\u011btky jsem ud\u011blala \u0161estku. Znovu si ten, r\u00e1doby d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fd, c\u00e1r pap\u00edru vezmu a n\u011bkolikr\u00e1t obt\u00e1hnu p\u0159episovanou p\u011btku tak, aby nebylo pochyb, \u017ee te\u010f je z n\u00ed prost\u011b \u0161estka, a tak to prost\u011b bude, n\u011bkter\u00e9 v\u011bci prost\u011b nevyjdou na prvn\u00ed pokus, to ale neznamen\u00e1, \u017ee je vyhod\u00edm a za\u010dnu znovu. N\u011bkde ta cesta mus\u00ed b\u00fdt vid\u011bt, a ta nen\u00ed dokonal\u00e1, jak by r\u00e1dy byly ve\u0161ker\u00e9 ofici\u00e1ln\u00ed dokumenty, administrativa, \u201epap\u00edry\u201c, pravidlo pro pravidlo, jak je lidsk\u00e1 spole\u010dnost r\u00e1da vytv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed a nabaluje na n\u011b dal\u0161\u00ed a dal\u0161\u00ed, a\u017e\u2026si nesm\u00edme dovolit ud\u011blat chybu a pokud ano, pry\u010d s n\u00ed, hlavn\u011b nen\u00e1padn\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Obtahuji \u010d\u00edslici \u0161est znovu a znovu, a\u017e je z n\u00ed takov\u00e1 hezk\u00e1 tlust\u00e1 masa\u0159ka, a c\u00e1r pap\u00edru odn\u00e1\u0161\u00edm se slovy, \u017ee \u201etakhle, j\u00e1 \u0161estku p\u00ed\u0161u!\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doprov\u00e1z\u00ed m\u011b utr\u00e1pen\u00fd pohled, kter\u00fd mi \u0159\u00edk\u00e1: fajn, jak mysl\u00ed\u0161, stejn\u011b jsou tv\u00e9 dny tady u\u017e se\u010dteny, rebeluj si, jak je libo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tak jo, kone\u010dn\u011b za\u010dnu d\u011blat v\u011bci, jak je c\u00edt\u00edm, po roce str\u00e1ven\u00e9m n\u011bkde, kde m\u016fj hlas nezn\u011bl, nem\u011bl \u017e\u00e1dnou v\u00e1hu, kde jsem nebyla sama sebou, abych nebyla vyhozena z kola ven, opak se stal pravdou, tak\u017ee\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kdy u\u017e si kone\u010dn\u011b uv\u011bdom\u00edm, \u017ee nejlep\u0161\u00ed varianta je ta, b\u00fdt sama sebou, nechat sv\u016fj hlas zn\u00edt, a pokud se n\u011bkomu bude zd\u00e1t p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 zvu\u010dn\u00fd, je chyba v p\u0159ij\u00edma\u010di, ne vys\u00edla\u010di a je fajn j\u00edt o kus d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tam, kde bude lep\u0161\u00ed akustika pro m\u016fj hlas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Slovy klasika, nev\u00edm kter\u00e9ho, zn\u00e1m\u00e9ho \u010di nezn\u00e1m\u00e9ho, mus\u00edm mu d\u00e1t zapravdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Be yourself, everybody else is taken.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Z\u00a0p\u011btky \u0161estkou\ud83d\ude09 P\u011btka se d\u00e1 kr\u00e1sn\u011b p\u0159epsat na \u0161estku, nemysl\u00edte? I j\u00e1 to tak ud\u011blala, b\u011bhem vypisov\u00e1n\u00ed data na jednom r\u00e1doby \u00fa\u0159edn\u00edm, ne v\u0161ak p\u0159\u00edli\u0161, dokumentu, sm\u011b\u0159ovala jej k odevzd\u00e1n\u00ed osob\u011b, kter\u00e1 pro danou v\u011bc nebyla kompetentn\u00ed, a v podstat\u011b, i p\u0159esto, \u017ee se zn\u00e1me v\u00edce jak dvacet let, u\u017e nebyla p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 kompetentn\u00ed ani pro m\u011b. Takovou … <\/p>\n

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